Sitting at the bar, trying to psych myself up for a busy day. Not sucessfully, I must admit. there's a connection box in. the cabinet chirping. I am 2 minutes away from a complete panic meltdown & not sure what to do. Probably another xanax afternoon. Sigh. It kills me to do this to myself but if I don't work my family suffers. So here I go again. Wish me luck. I'm sure gonna need it.