Intergal, this is avlady, i am taking your advise too, and am going to do whatever the**** i want to this week. i also feel like Bipolar1, and I feel like i can't handle anything, i mean i just feel like i can't take it anymore. I think it started last week when i found out my sister was flying in from North Carolina, and she had to go home instead on the day of the flight because there was a mechanical issue with the plane. She missed the family party, which did turn out fun, but i didn't get to see her, which was the only reason i went to the party anyway. The thing is i can't handle crowds and kids, I get all nervous around people and it knocks me into next week. I aam sitting here wondering if i should put myself in the pshyc ward, or maybe i'll get over it soon, i guess i'll have to wait and see.