Yeah, so am I Coco. Never thought I was when I was working and keeping on relatively even keel but over the past eight years, as my cycling worsened and I generally became more unstable, I tell my wife that if she thinks it's hard living with me, it's hard for me to live with me. We still haven't resolved whether we should separate, though she goes on as if all is fine. She lives her life in a constant state of denial.