My wife understands my dissociation a bit better than family. They are a bit less open to mental illness I'm general, and just think i should change the way i think and everything would be ok. I try to get them to understand, but it's useless. My wife has also been the one to see the dissociation directly. No one else has personally witnessed it. I don't have asked so much as different sources to my personality that are stronger at various times. Lately the inTegration had been better, but not by much. (I'm doing this on my phone, so please excuse the horrid spacing). I think feeling like your t is frustrated with you is common with many people. I know i have felt that way a lot of the time. I struggle with it must when I'm feeling more needy and a mess. My therapist has been kind enough so far too tell me that i do not bother or annoy him. Out can be hard to believe when the abuse and other life experiences make you believe you are s bother - definitely something i deal with a lot.