Thankyou for everyones response and yes I know I need a shrink but how are hey am I supposed to find one when either they do not accept my insurance or they are 45 minutes away and I do not have the gas or good enough vehicle to get me there???? I am extremely frustrated and honestly if I did not have my son that I am solely responsible for I would not have to worry about any of this because I would be dead!!!! sorry but I am just tired of trying to find help and hitting brick walls!!!!