It has been a long time. I understand why he behaves they way he does, and even the things he has done. I am not sure if it healthy or not. When I am with him I glad to be there but part of me feels like I am wasting my time which I hate feeling and when we are apart, its unbearable. I understand it takes time to heal and he has come such a long way, I can't take that for granted. I just feel like I have given so much of myself and that has been taken for granted. Although that is my fault too, I shouldn't have given so much. So yeah, who knows.