Dear T,
I accidentally sent you an email I think you may have to act on... I really meant to switch the "to" field to myself, but the computer has been jumpy lately and it sent it even without me finishing what I was writing... Please don't act on it, but please do... I'm struggling so much with all this... I really need something else... I lie with that smile and the self-assured walk in and out of your office each time... please know that while I am panicking about sending you that email, I really need you to read it and act on it because I don't know how much longer I can hold out... I'm glad I see you tomorrow, but also terrified... and I may continue to lie out of fear and anxiety, but I think we both knew this was coming... and... I'm sorry...