I'm getting to the point where I'm about to give up on everything. Give up on this forum. Give up on horses. Give up on my relationship. Give up on my job. Give up on my future. And give up on life. Give up on ever trying to be happy. I just don't know what to do anymore and just when I think things might be okay it all blows up in my face. Full out explosion. And why? Because I don't know. I'm never going to be good enough or smart enough to do anything but shovel crap the rest of my life which is pretty pathetic. I'm feeling really down. And nothing makes me feel better.