What an insensitive jerk! You don't deserve to be disrespected and treated like that. I'm not anti-porn, but I understand feeling inadequate when compared to it. How would he feel if you were looking at women's porn? Hot, young, sexy men, maybe even naked! And how would he feel if you compared him to them? I'm really sorry to hear you're feeling like this. He has no business making you feel like crap.

By the way, I'm 45, so I am close to your age. I have self-esteem issues, too.