then save your *** they will. Yoda

After 30 years of very small periods of complete sobriety ( 1 to 3 years ) I stopped going to AA. I find that it puts the thought of drinking in my head and I then drink to remove it. I believe that I work the last steps automatically without trying, that my subconscious as learned behaviour that keeps me sober 99 percent of the time and when I do drink on a rare occasion all is well with no problems, but am very cautious about it, again very rare if I drink a beer or two and never any trouble with alcohol since 30 years ago.