I know EXACTLY how you feel OP. It has affected me so badly that now I have zero sex drive & now I have Body Dysmorphic Disorder. I developed high anxiety to the point of lossing my job. I obsessively go to the gym everyday now. If he isn't watching it now its only because he works from home and I always there. But you can sure bet that as soon as I go to gym he is hoping on and watching it despite what it does to me. We have talked, argued, fought, tried to find compromises and I have cried till there were just no more tears and I am on 4 different medications now. This still will not stop them. Men do this to us and we have no choice but to live with the pain of it. They tell us it is OUR problem and that we need to just learn how to deal with it. I know he watches it when I leave the house even though he makes it seem like to me that he doesn't. Im not stupid I know. But I stopped letting him know that I know because it just brings about epic fights which only worsen the conditions I have developed. The last big one sent me to the hospital for 3 days because of the tremendous breakdown I had. I love him very much and he swears he loves me too and says this is a thing that men just simply can not stop. That its impossible for them to and that we women need to come to terms with it. I wish I could come to terms with it as easily as some women tell me they do. It is destroying me. I have tried to get help but nothing is helping. Now I just pray to someday become numb because then i won't care and the problem will cease to exist. I think for women like us that maybe our only hope to end our pain because im told that till it doesn't bother us anymore, it doesn't matter who we are with every one of them will hurt us in this way.