OMG, I cannot imagine my husband turning into an abuser and taking my children!! I wish I could crawl into my phone and hug you. That, to me, is one of the deepest tragedies I could face. It's just unnatural for a mother not to have her babies And did he really have to move to Alaska? Geez, overkill huh?

Im on vistaril 50mg 4x daily but really it's PRN. I'm using it to get to sleep (like 200mg) at night while I wean off of this Seroquel (I'm almost done with that BTW ).

Anyway, the dreams are more pleasant than any I've had in a long time. Seroquel = nightmares, Ambien= acid trip type dreams, Stephen King would PAY me for this stuff! Restoril = no dreams at all. I've noticed though since Im not sedated by the Seroquel (down to 200mg at bed) and 50-200mg (just depends) Vistaril my dreams are SO sexual in nature! This would naturally be kind of fun except it's always with someone extremely inappropriate! Like one of my teen boys from the youth group I volunteered with for 2yrs before I quit last Nov (when I cut my dreads off I kind of quit everything out of shame and embarrassment). I hate these dreams. They are fun and wild but I wake up feeling guilty, like I chose to dream it, or like somehow it's this deep hidden fantasy which makes me want to vomit. But I lost my virginity at 13 and "could have any guy I wanted" for years.

All that to say I can commiserate just in my own effed up way, and I didn't mean to hijack your thread.