I would check to see if there are any counselors that will do it for free or work on a sliding scale. Do you have any friends who have been thru the same thing? If so, maybe you can get together so you can talk things out. Abortion is a hard decision and not one that most women take lightly. And it's not unusual for women to go thru all kinds of stuff. But as I said in my other post: you are not a bad person!