I wanted a broader audience than just those in the BPD or BP forums soley, hence the other category.
So I have realized, I think officially and finally this time, that I need to completely back off my current destructive and impulsive behavior I have been allowing to take over my life and me to my core.
This is going to be the most difficult uphill battle as I have tried this before, over and over again and have failed miserably each and every time. Though this time something is very, very different. I can't explain it well in words, it is mostly an underlying and sense that if this isn't the last time to shape myself up I won't have another try at it period. And I like my life at its outside, comfortable house, we can buy things if we want them (within reason), we can redo the bathroom now, I do like those things. I have always been able to function I just implode and go down a very bad path until it catches up with me.
I have BPD, bipolar II and anxiety in case that matters in your response.
I need to know how to go about this? I mean if this relates to anyone and you have real experiences you want to share i am open, i also answer PMS. I just really need a good conversation on this to figure out how do I cope this massive of a task.
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