I wish you well. This is a scary time. I agree...getting some help is so needed at this point. I have had several blackouts in the past and can relate to the fear. You'll have a lot of support here....it might be the time to get some more focused help too.
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"The curious paradox is that when I accept myself just as I am, then I can change.” - Carl Rogers
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"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom." - Anais Nin
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