I've thought that this whole world could be a fish bowl for someone bigger than us. And I don't mean God. I am a charismatic Christian but there have been times where I just felt like we were entertainment for whoever is sitting back and watching from above (above not meaning Heaven, just above us, like right up past the ozone layer or something). It's a strange feeling but I can usually pull myself out of it recalling the miraculous healing I've experienced personally and for others I've prayed for. I've felt the presence of God many times over and sometimes feel like being Bipolar interferes with my ability to really "let go and let God." I feel so much better since having my meds adjusted but still, my brain comes up with the weirdest stuff.