4 years has passed, and I still find it hard to cope on aniversaries. Joe would have been 21 this year, and Monday marks 4 years since his suicide. Joe was a good friend. Although 2years younger we got along well. The news of his death almost caused me to collapse in the middle of the room, I was in shock! I remember i clearly and could eve walk to the exact place I was standing when i said the words allowd, "joe's dead..." I don't know what to do, Monday is the aniversary and i just feel at a loss....