Reality show? How fitting

Let it out yes Venus, mental/emotional purging can be quite cathartic. I think on some level I empathize with "old soul feeling older" or having lived to many lives. I've always thought of it as having wayyyyy to many life experiences for life span.

I've often wondered since my teen years if my peers had learned even half the lessons I've learned, or if they've fought half the battles I've already won...

Mentally I feel about 65, sometimes 165, So yeah I think I get it on some level.

I hope you start feeling better soon my friend, self-discovery can be a fragile process so please practice some of that healthy hedonism, its good healing for the soul