I always thought I was a little off in some of my thoughts. Especially those that involve danger and harm.

I've often thought of throwing myself over the railing on a very upper level of a stairwell while looking over the edge. The stupid part about it is I won't be able to stop fixating on it and its so annoying. I try very hard not to even "go there" with my thoughts but it's like I have no control. Is this all just my weirdness or can anyone relate?