I figure it's gonna take us a long time to learn how to be comfortable with ourselves.
I get so nervous and uncomfortable sometimes and just wish I had a cigarette or a drink. Something. Anything to feel like I fit in or aren't so insane.
I slipped up a couple of days ago as well. I smoked a whole pack of cigs in an hour and a friend bought me some drinks. It was a sad day... but oh well. Starting over again isn't the end of the world. it just sucks.