Thanks you guys...
Therapy, yeah, I'll probably be looking at that soon. I wouldn't be surprised if my pastor brings it up next time I talk with him... whenever that may be... since he hasn't contacted me yet... hmm. I'm more worried about how I'll pay for that, though... but there may be some kind of sliding scale and assistance program w/ my church through the Christian counseling place around here... I'm just afraid it'll mean all my money will have to go to it... when I really need to spend a few hundred dollars on tests this summer before school.
Ugh, I hate myself, how I can't get a worthwhile job... my crappy little job even sent me home early today because they ran out of work... after 3 hours! It's so frustrating... I don't understand how high schoolers can have better jobs around here... and be hired over me... when I have semi-good work experience, a hs diploma, some college, and a second language - spanish, very useful in this area. It's got to be my looks/personality... both of them crappy... oh how I hate myself.
Well, found out the pdoc is a man - or so I would hope with the name Henry. I am glad about that...