hey guys, an update.
tonight's sleep was pretty rough, and what I experience, that falling asleep with Xanax is pretty easy and good, and the first 3-4 hours of sleep is very good, but the second part, when the effect wears off, my nightmares and long REM sleep is coming back.

I'm going to psychotherapy, so I'm gonna talk about my dreams there, but it's still kinda rough.
I don't want to take a larger those which will black me out for longer time.. but if that what works for me to get normal sleep then maybe I should consider... or some other kind of meds.. i have no idea.