Maybe your husband doesn't want to focus on your illness, and would rather focus on who you are a person?
Just because you have this, doesn't mean he wouldn't want to be with you. Earlier you mentioned that he said you two were the other 10% then.
I get why you wanted birth control, was your doctor OK with this? Either one, would have been aware of what other meds you were on. So, if that's an added benefit to your marriage, so be it
Hang in there. There's plenty of people in this world, who have what you have. Maybe, it's taking a while for the new DX to click into you mind. Takes time.
You'll get there...
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Originally Posted by HabitualQuitter
So I finally saw another psych who agreed with my Dx's and helped adjust my meds. I'm feeling much more hopeful after finally getting to.talk to a pdoc. He agreed the Seroquel dose was excessive, and we believe that high dose was actually causing the hallucinations. I am now down to 600mg at bed and in a couple days I'll taper down to 400 then 200, etc. He also took one look at my rash and said it was no doubt the Lamictal causing it. I have been to the ER once for it and they just gave me a 5day regimen of Prednisone and said they can't adjust my meds even if Im having an allergic reaction 
Sooooo he's helping me wean off of Lamictal, too. By next Friday I plan to be Lamictal free and close to Seroquel free. I've gained 50lbs in 3 months. It's insanity
I found an IRL support group that meets 2x a month, I've gotten two great books about Bipolar. I told my hubby it's too bad he doesn't read and he just said,"yep." But he does read
He reads ESPN on his phone, news on his phone, etc. I've linked him to my blog a couple times via text since I know he reads on his phone but I still don't know if he's read it or not. I am going to point blank ask him. He's open to talk about it sometimes and usually in the camp of "once you're on the right meds you'll be fine." I tried to explain that he's partially correct but there can be triggers that could possibly set me off in the future. I don't really know what my triggers are or how to figure it out. I want him to understand but it's almost like he thinks I am just using the Bipolar as an excuse or like I can just be "fixed."
Things aren't much better and he's been spending a lot of time working on his car when he gets home. I miss him. I went and got a birth control shot so we could be more free in that arena, sometimes sex is a big fat eraser and once you're together all the little things that were bothering you just fade away. I think God created sex to be like that for married folks. I'm hoping it helps reconnect us. I just feel stuck. There's a "friends & family of bipolar" group that meets the same day/time as my group and I am trying to get him to go. I think we both have a lot to learn still. I just need him on the same page as me, or at least in the same book! |