Oh yes, THIS!


Me too ...

Wow thanks for your responses 1stepatatime and LearningMe, it sooo helps to know that I am not alone in these weird and all encompassing feelings

And after reading your post LearningMe I agree re the love feelings - she is definitely one of my sort of people, which I think is what makes it harder for me to tell her. But I just don't know why I love her like this ... how can someone who I only see for an hour a week, who I know next to nothing about, and for whom I am just one of many who come to see her each week, mean so much to me?? Like more than other people in my life? Transference is well strange ...

It drives me mad that I think about her so much. If she knew, god knows what she would think of me ... I think I hide it well though, I am such a cool cucumber in session and I absolutely pretend like I don't really care about her that much. I've even said to her, "I don't want to know anything about you' to hide the fact that I want to know EVERYTHING about her, LOL Oh and after she went on a two week vacation (and I missed her a lot) when we came back to session she said "I missed you". I freaked out internally, really wanted to say "I missed you toooooo" but didn't. I said something lame like "ah yeah ... sure ... it's nice to see you ... um" which of course was me hiding my feelings again. Ugh. I'm so far away from admitting these feelings to her!

1stepatatime - would love to know how you go with explaining things to her via your email. I think you were really brave to start the discussion. Learningme - am so inspired by your discussion re having coffee with her but also can't imagine saying it!! The fear of rejection is so strong and knowing that she could only reject me would hurt

Hope we can all work through these feelings ...