That's a tough situation. I'm guessing you may need a med adjustment but how can you since your doc won't talk to you. Can you call back and say you feel it is an emergency and have anyone at all call you back? I really don't know much about the VA, so it's hard to give advice on it.

But, are you in any type of talk therapy? I'm not on any meds and I find talk therapy actually helps a lot. Really, meds are just one part of treatment. Therapy is another big part of it. Right now I have no insurancr at all, so PC is kind of my talk therapy for now. Sometimes ranting and getting it out and then getting some feedback is really helpful. If you don't have a therapist and can't get one maybe there are churches that offer support groups. Also, I don't know if you can get help from low income clinics or not. Or, see if your job offers an employee assistance program. Sometimes jobs offer those even if you don't have the insurance. I've used the one at my work several times.

One thing I do is keep a mood tracker. There are free ones all over the internet, but I like optimism online best because I can customize it. Keeping track of myself really helps me gauge where I'm at and if I'm sinking into trouble. Also make sure you're eating as healthy as possible, sleeping on a regular schedule, drinking water, and getting some exercise. Those are some good "home remedies" that help. Also, try to stay on a routine every day as much as possible.

Do you have any support people that you can tell them what to watch for if you start to lose your grip? Friends or family or anyone? Not everyone has this, I know. But if so, maybe put them on alert what's going on.