well said Pierro!

Newfie: If you really choose to dig deep in yourself, then you have to accept that it's gonna hurt more than anything so far, you felt. Imagine it like it was a surgery. And then, imagine having a surgery without painkillers. That's what it feels like. But you have to take the surgery to get well.

This is the same what I'm going through. I've been about 12 times at my new therapist. And all I can say is that it still hurts every single time. But the picture does get clearer.
If it hurts, it's a sign, that it's working.

You are very strong, and you're gonna be able to go through it! I'm rooting for you. I know it's very hard, but on the long run, it's the only way.

Like I always say, about depression, the only way out is through.