i do see a therapist, the one i seen after this therapist did this to me. i went back to her recently,, when i first saw her i was an emotional wreck i was balling my eyes out about what the therapist did to me, and she had to have her supervisor come in and help her deal with it,, she didn't now what to do..
this destroyed me, and even my therapist don't understand how it has effected my whole life.. i have other traumas,, the trauma i enclosed to this therapist is the one that stands out in my head.. now along with that, my therapist is right along with my trauma in standing out in my head.. how she responded is stained in my head. an i cant get it out. . every thing she sayed, an her facial expressions i see everytime i think about my trauma.

Jungatheart thank you i will read those and see what i can find out.

thanks all of you. . sometimes just hearing from others that understand how feelings like that r so hard to heal from.. sometimes i wonder if i ever will . . i can manage it, i know that..
as far as the male therapist goes, he knows her, and likes how she responded, and i don't so i guess feeling like it was okay for a moment felt better. didn't after it was over. and the inner child part.. that's what the both of them turned me into.. the male therapist described it to me in very vivid way, and explaining how my body responded to that child. it was very disturbing and very raw,, i feel like i am an experiment sometimes and i don't like that.. i am married my husband and i took a break, we have separate issues.. this has take a toll on him too.. he was there when i got the fb messages from the therapist and he was the first to read it.. he got very upset.. he has something wrong with the relationship i had with her, he gets so mad and don't want me talking to her. idk.

again thanks.