I have known for a while, but my best (and honestly, only) friend is moving over to australia (from england) in 6 days and tomorrow is the last time I will ever see him. I just don't know what to do I'm so scared for all of this, I know I'll cry so much when I leave after tomorrow because if I look back I know that will be the last time. Making new friends has always been difficult, and those that I have had came by just by luck, I have never been able to let go of anybody though inside ~ everyone is still there, just sort of missing.

I couldn't ever replace him, I would never want to, and I know I will never be able to let go, not even through decades. We are in a sort more than just friends too, he is the first person that ever kissed me (and the only) and that means so much I don't want anybody else ever to kiss me. We have not grown distant, just different, as the days have come closer to his leave, what can I do I can't face this, I'm not ready to