Aw! I'm sorry! You sound like you are describing me! I know that addiction feeling, it is addicting to feel connected to people. I kinda have to make myself take a day here and there away from it too. You care about people like me I think. I really relate to everything you've said.
I am doing it better, having friends, from a distance for now. I hope you can find some peace with this. I look at it as a 'safe' addiction/addition to my life, maybe you can too?