Thank you for sharing. So many of the things you say describe exactly how I feel most of the time. I've had worse batches (for months) at a time where I am exactly how you describe. And a few good days or a week and then back to feeling bad. Like the last few weeks have been bad and I just found this page/forum/community and it really helps to know you are not alone (or me, right now). I've been in and out of depression for years now. Thank you for sharing so much. It means a lot to someone like me! It's very painful. I wish the best for you. A big cyber hug sent your way.