I saw both my T and a Pdoc today to evaluate my meds. They changed them up. Took me off the Librium, and put me on carbamazepine twice a day. My T also said that I may be bpd as well as bipolar 1. I can accept the bipolar, b/c that's a brain chemistry thing, and it's science. But I don't know about he borderline personality disorder. I was doing okay today until that. She really wants me to go into Dialectical behavior therapy. My T thinks that it would be good for me, but I'm scared. I'm scared to find out I'm broken, and not just some screwed up chemistry. I can understand science, but the personality disorder, I just don't understand, and I'm scared.

Jeffro