So, I know its been a while since I've posted on the forums here but I need support for a much more recent development in my life. I've always tried to help people whenever I can. I put others before myself, but lately even to the point where I sacrifice my own well-being for others. But recently, its like its bad news all the time. I can't see the good in anything anymore, all I see in people is the fact that they're hurting; they're angry, depressed, something's wrong all the time and I know I can't fix it. But I can't stop noticing it. (and don't just tell me to stop paying attention. I got that from another group of people and it really ticks me off. If I could just stop paying attention, I would.)

I don't watch the news, I don't socialize but I see things. I can somehow see people's pain all the time, I pick up on it in some way shape or form and now it's becoming even harder to make friends because they're hurting all the time and I can't stop noticing it and when I can't help, my head goes to some pretty dark places and I just can't control it. I keep quiet and I bottle everything in but it feels like it's draining me and I just need to stop feeling things. I need some way to feel numb.