Hello, My issue has to do with multiple things, like 1, I'm gay and still in the closet, 2. I'm in a relationship that i don't want to be in, and 3.I'm scared that the person I'm in a relationship with will hurt/kill themselves if i break up with them. (we are both 15 years old) Recently i have been feeling a lot of stress from a relationship i have been in for about 4 months. I have feelings for my boyfriend, and i would never hurt him intentionally, and might even jump in front of a bullet to save this person. But the problem is that they are very negative all the time, and even when i try helping, they do not take my word for it. I know that he has been feeling lonely, and even threatens to kill himself after we get into fights. Its almost as if he relies on me to fix all of his problems and then blames me for not being able to do so. Due to all the stress, i have not been getting the grades i feel i can, and instead of doing homework on nights, i worry and grief why i do this to him, and how if he does kill himself, its my fault. I'm scared to hurt him , as he might commit suicide, so i simply pretend like nothing is wrong, even saying "i love you" back to him when he says it to me, despite this being the true way i feel about him because i feel that love can't really be found at this age. His depression often effects the way i do in school. and to be honest, im tired of it. He constantly pushes me out of my comfort zone, inviting me to school events, and then beating himself up about me saying no saying that "i guess i should go die somewhere because even my boyfriend doesn't want to be with me", this also makes me wanna cry because i can't do anything about it either, because i don't want people to know i'm gay yet..and sadly to say, i just want to break up, but am terrified of the consequences of what he might do. Im feeling stuck, and maybe even emotionally abused. I would never kill/hurt myself, but im just depressed because he might... His life is important to me, but so are academics. What do i do? :/ Please help. Thanks.