I am hanging onto that and thanks for the reinforcement. The good part is that it is noticable at times, mostly in contrast to some "bookmarks" I had when I was feeling worse.

When I wrote the poem "Haunted" it was because I was discussing with my T that I thought my kitchen might be haunted, because every time I went downstairs for food I was OVERWHELMED with noticable sadness, as if the kitchen was a focus point for something. I did not truly believe the kitchen was haunted but something about it triggered my depression.

Once in a while that still happens but when it does I snap out of it quickly because when I feel that overwhelming sadness, I realize that no longer feel that way every time I go to the kitchen... and that is a huge improvement.

I'm probably going to email my boss... there are some other anxiety factors there with other people involved at work, that now come into play with regard to the 401(k) (including the one who replaced me in taking care of that stuff) that make it a reall stressor for me. I've already worked out with a friend that if I go through with this he will bring the forms there for the boss to sign them for me because no way could I set foot in there myself.

That might be a goal to work through but it is so incredibly serious that I really think it is in my best interest to focus on other goals and just put all that behind me as soon as I can.

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