I am really struggling right now. My official diagnosis are bipolar with psychosis, Tourette's syndrome, general anxiety disorder, and obsessive compulsive disorder (Yea, I won the **** me lottery). I've never posted here before... I just remembered coming across this forum back in the day when I was looking into something. Right now I'm just seeing suicidal incidents and hearing myself telling myself that that's what I should do... But I don't want to. That's the last thing I want to do... I'm essentially struggling against my own self right now. Honestly, I never thought I'd post here, but I just desperately need to hear from someone who has been through anything remotely similar. This is very unusual for me, but not the first time. I've always been extremely successful, but this pops up from time to time and it's completely debilitating. Thank you to anyone taking the time to read all of this.