Thank you all for your feedback. I think my therapist seems fine and itsprobably just me. I'm scared for this reason, for me to finally go to some one for help means that I must have a little glimmer of hope, me feeling worse scares me because I'm feeling/thinking, what if I just don't get it or can't find my way with his help, if not then my glimmer of hope is gone. With no hope what is there? This scares me. I'm on aplenzin the largest dose and I was just prescribed zoloft. I hope this helps and gives me some relief. I'm so tired.