I'm just going to tell you the same thing as everyone else. Leave. Don't look back. The longer you're in an abusive relationship, the more likely you'll start to believe the B.S. he's giving you. I dated a guy for about a year, on and off. The day he hit me was the day I said goodbye for good. Trust me, he won't change, and you don't have time for anyone to treat you that way. Find people who support you. A good guy will come your way. You might meet him on a dating site, or in a store, or right down the street. Abusers rarely change, and frankly, I wouldn't stick around while he's recovering. Me, I wouldn't go back, even if he did change, but that's just me. Take care of yourself; you matter.