Somebody who once meant something to me told me that when my heart met with my head, I would be able to make the decision I needed to make. Thankfully that happened sooner than later and I divorced my ex husband who was emotionally, mentally and sometimes physically abusing me.

You are totally being abused, despite him being nice to you from time to time. He is brainwashing you to believing you deserve this kind of abuse. How sad. Because he is not going to change. I feel for you and hope that when your heart meets with your head that you will get the heck out of that relationship.