I often see T's other clients and sometimes I have a jealous reaction, depending on the state I'm in at that time.

I also attend group T with some of T's other clients, and that is sometimes super hard when certain feelings are triggered.

Most recently, a group member acted in a very hurtful and threatening way - and he sees my T individually - and I feel betrayed because I know that T is being compassionate, caring and helpful towards him. I end up imagining one of my abusers being in T's office and how caring he would be towards him - which makes me SO angry and hateful. At the moment, the idea makes me feel that he is disingenuous and that therapy is just some BS game.