hey!
I think you should trust yourself, if you know what would make you happier don't step off that route. on the long run, nobody else can tell you what's the best for you, but you.
So if you imagine yourself happy with the baby, and you trust your instincts, then that's what you should do. You've been depressed for a long time, and if it's been on and off for 9 years, I honestly don't think, skipping a year from meds could do any wrong.
I mean, you say you're depressed, you're under medication, but still depressed, you go to therapy and still depressed... Do you actually change the things in your life that make you feel this way? Because you can go to therapy and take meds for decades, but if you don't change your life, and the way you look at yourself, and deal with life, then you will stay depressed.

I mean come on. I might sound cruel, but sometimes people tend to forget that depression is mainly a mental condition, that only can be solved if the mental/life problem is solved.
we can take meds for as long as we want, but it will only help with the symptoms, but not help with solving the problem.

This what I wrote doesn't count for the ones who are suffering from a chemical imbalance since birth, but clearly this is not your case.

Trust yourself, only YOU know what's best for you, not your husband, not your therapist, and not us, completely unknown people speaking from behind the computer on a depression forum.