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Old May 22, 2013, 09:39 AM
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I had a fight with my boyfriend last night, and I'm really upset about it. We've been doing so well lately, but no matter how good we are, there are still times when I get anxious and don't trust him. I don't really have the time to explain everything right now because I'm at work, but I just needed to talk to someone(s). This is the message I sent my boyfriend this morning, post-fight.

I left my phone at home today, just so you know. I hate fighting with you. But it breaks my heart when you drink, and I don't think you get how much. And I know you probably think its annoying and an invasion of your privacy when I check your facebook and maybe it is. I hate that I do it, and despite what you probably think I don't do it all the time. But sometimes I get these feelings, so I look to reassure myself. That comes from our past, with Melissa and Chelsea and Amanda and doing other drugs and lying about it....you have to understand that even if your being a good boyfriend now, for the first year at least you weren't, and it shattered my trust in you and most people. And I think messaging Jaime privately when you were there with her and Matt is inappropriate, especially since you were impaired. Anyways I know I'm not perfect, but at least I'm honest. But we cant keep doing this. I want to trust you but I still don't. I need help.
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