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Originally Posted by tinyrabbit
I'd been telling my T about how I tried to tell my mum I hated school and was being bullied. She wasn't interested and wouldn't listen. I've just remembered that my brother was bullied at school. Why do I know this? Because he WAS listened to.
So I think I also worry that my T can't have space to care about me and someone else, that I could get pushed out by their problems. Wow. I am so grateful to all of you for helping me work this out. I thought it was just that she looked prettier and happier than me - like someone who wouldn't feel the same as me about this! - at first, but it's not just that.
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I can completely identify with this and I'm ashamed to admit it. I would complain about school and was told to "deal with it" "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger" kind of attitude. At the same time my mom would go rushing to my younger brother's school and stand up for him against teachers or believe him when he said something was unfair. I hated my brother for this. (Not anymore I was just a teenager)
With T I want to be the one that needs her most, that she cares about the most, that she worries about the most, that she is proud of the most, that she loves, the most, etc. For me her laughing with another client hurt this "most" because she has told me that she thinks I'm funny. Like you can't find more than one person funny. I really annoy myself sometimes.
