It is NOT your fault! Even if your bipolar has contributed to your son's ED, you never decided to be bipolar! So it's just silly to blame yourself and feel guilty. You have enough to cope with even without that. Eating disorders are scary, both for the sufferers themselves and for the people who care about them. I've never been diagnosed with one, but sometimes I fall into a state where I starve myself and so on. And it's never really about food. It's more about self-loathing and low self-esteem. It's about feeling weak and out of control, like you're all over the place and can't pick yourself up. You think you're controlling your eating but really it's the other way round. It's the food controlling you. Well actually it's your own mind. I felt so trapped and helpless!

People are different though and your son may not exactly be going through what I did, but I thought maybe sharing my experience would help you understand the whole thing better. I don't know what advice I can offer, but there's one thing in my mind at the moment. Your son is on his own journey and you are on yours. Your paths go together but you can't tread the path for him. Dealing with his illness is not really up to you. You can be there for him. You can ask his T or psychiatrist how you can help him. However, he can recover only if he recognizes the ED as an enemy and decides to put up a fight. Meanwhile, you'd better take care of yourself and avoid freaking out so you can give him enough support.

You'll manage turbulence. I know you will. You'll be great. Just hold on