Okay, it has been almost a year since been on this site. There seemed to be a few people that were interested in my progress at that time, so I thought I'd share what's been happening in the meantime. As of February, I did finally leave the relationship that I had been in for about two and a half years. I finally got fed up with the controlling and self - depleting demeanor of the situation. I ended up having to call my mother, with whom I hadn't had any contact with during those years. She actually welcomed me with open arms and was just utterly happy that I had finally released myself. After I moved in with her, I had a hard time with not dealing with the residual feelings from the break up. I had a difficult with Marijuana and alcohol, more specifically problems with it in public. I ended up getting charged with two counts of possession, and a Minor in Possession alcohol within 2 days. I delt with a lot of guilt in the way of my mother because she had allowed me back into her home and I felt as if I had let her down. For about a week, things continued with the drugs and alcohol, and I had quite an extreme night on St. Patrick day. A couple weeks later, after I had told my mom about the charges and she had helped me get clean, I missed a period and soon found out that I'm pregnant. Soon after, I had to spend a week in jail for my charges. I have continued with my mental health treatment, and am still attending DBT every week. I've had to stop taking my medication, though, because of the pregnancy. I have decided to keep the baby, even though I'm not with the father. This, coupled with not having medication, has sent me into another spiral of emotions, though I am in a very different place. Which has brought me back to the comforts of this site. (Feel free to move this if it doesn't belong here, I just wasn't sure because there were so many topics covered.)