Although I probably wouldn't have such a strong reaction, I would also feel very uncomfortable staying longer. In fact, I'm not sure I could do it. Possibly if my T was clear about EXACTLY how much time I would have - say 5 or 10 minutes.

I guess because she has 'enforced' other boundaries with me before and that felt very painful, I do not trust her not to hurt me again even if she actually gave clear guidelines on how much we'd extend a session.

But, I doubt it will ever happen. Once a few months ago, I was beginning to tell T a new story and she looked at clock and told me I only had 5 minutes left. Well, I'm perfectly aware of how much time we had left because I see the clock on wall behind her and I am diligent in monitoring it and pacing myself.

So, to me, her 'reminder' of time I had available was a loud and clear message to never go over the time.

I feel for you because I do relate somewhat. I guess it's also related to being able to trust enough to receive.