Do you think this stems from lack of enough meaningful realationship and you are trying to latch on to anything to fill the emptiness? I don't know, just my observation.

I tend to push everyone away, then get lonely and depressed and then I try find releationships and do what ever I can so people will like me. That way I feel good about myself. I guess I never learned how to like myself, or feel good about anything I do without someone's approval I care about. It makes me feel damaged.