my new therapist wants to report him, that would be the right thing to do.
but me, I have had on going sexual reltionships with professional's
I also had an incedent at that agency that I don't get.. they have a crisis/step down unit.. I was getting stabilized on meds, one of there best doctors showed up at 2a.m. and came into my room with another patient woke me up out of bed, ask me to borrow some of my klonopin for this other patient.. then checked my arm for a rash.. I had no clue this was against the rules until I woke up, the head nurse the next morning was so mad.. she kept telling me "he knew better than to do that" she said she reported him and he was going to get in a lot of trouble, he still works there and they would not allow me to see him as a doctor and perhaps this is why they wont release my file to any other agencies. .idk. why would he do something that stupid being a doc. for that many years knowing he could risk his job.. because they know they can get away with it. this scenario was forbidden to talk about, like it never happened afterwards .
my thoughts and perceptions of that place r so paranoid now, should I be? I mean constantly I say no its just the way my thinking is, but when actual life experiences happen to someone to this degree.. my inner child immediately comes out when this place in mentioned.. no answers on there part.. and as far as them, I had good reltionships with that whole team at one time.. I feel very embarrassed of myself when I go there . . (which I do not anymore) but that's really the only place with doctors I can go.. I am unmedicated, I wont go there to see the doc... I think they are going to give me meds to hurt me and make me go crazy so they can get rid of me. the embarrassment I feel because of how my therapist responded to my trauma, because I feel the whole place new she had a problems with my trauma there fore she had to tell them my trauma. idk.
this is my life, if they would just help me, I could trust all of them again.. and they would act like they cared about how my mental state is because of all of this. I would appreciate that from them if they would give me some closure..
I mean what do all of you think about it.. I tell normal people all of this, they sit back and r like "wow" cant understand half of what I am explaining or its just too much for them to take in.

I mean would an agency secure my file so others wouldn't see what happened? or would it even be in the file. ?

another thing is the ex t (as you guys call her) I do have feelings for her. I do not want her to get in trouble... Its sad how unconditionally I care for her, even after she did that... I don't half to talk to her, but like I said if she ask to me to do something I would drop everything I was doing just to do it for her.. sad to me, because I have a lot of hate towards her too.. I always say I hate liking her. its something of a battle in my mind and its constant hell to see her as bad then good,, I have nightmares about her, and still my trauma but it feels like she has invaded my mind. and I want it to go away, I am trying everything right now.
I had this though by getting a new therapist, and getting attached to a new therapist it would take her away,, it didn't.. and it wont, tried that for years.. trying to get attached to different therapist, I cant... none of them.