oh and jungaheart my own mother is going through it too.. that's what my mom said she did to me brainwashed me , she told her off on FB , my mom telling this therapist I am her daughter and she had enough of all of this and the whole agency messing me up worse than I was. my mom does not understand why I am so close with this women.
the women did feel like my mommy and even at times acted like she was, controlling everything I did, telling me not who to date, what I needed to do.. and punishing me if I did not do it..she even sang a lullaby to me one time. she was my first therapist so idk this was not how therapy goes. as I distance myself I see that it was brainwashing, which brings me somewhat away from it.. eventually one day I can cut myself off, but she leaves that open for me . . I think that one day she will just tell me why she did that, and explain it to me.. doubtfully I still know its probally not going to happen. she has other patients she can try to fix her problems through that she had with me. (like another patient like me, that she will not **** it up that time around)... its nice to know I am so easily a nobody, and its just another experiment if messed up she can try it again. her theory that is.