Am not coping at the moment at all am about a year maybe less without drink or drugs ( apart from medication for my mental health )

I don't go to AA or NA as i have social anxiety and find it hard to go with a big group of people
Also i haven't self injured for two weeks and my anti psychotic have been reduced by my psych even though i am still hearing voices

I keep thinking about drinking or taking drugs i want to smoke weed as well
its been a while since i have done any and my husband will not let it in the house at all same with drink as well
so there is no way for me to have it because i don't have friends who take drugs or drink in my company and i don't leave the house without my husband

My husband and i have talked about this as well and he feels that am just trying to fall back on old habits and that will be detrimental to myself