I'm usually the last client of the day, but once I came out of my T's office to see a very pretty client in the waiting room. I was jealous but also noticed that she had way too much make-up on, was dressed in a way too short and low cut, wrong time of day, dress that was summery on a still cold March day. (I know I sound so catty right now!!). But there was a lot of "trying hard" going on, in addition to the pretty. Anyway, when he told her he would be just a minute, she was looking at him like she was lost in complete infatuation. I was (and still am) dealing with my own infatuation but I remember not wanting to be like her - making it so obvious through clothes etc. I didn't want to be one of a legion of women that fall for him and make it so obvious. I wanted to be special and different to him. So I actually started making a point of not looking so freshly made-up etc when I got there.
Since then, whenever someone still had to come out before my appt I got a nervous feeling as I knew I would compare if it is another woman. I'm so relieved it has been a guy and it usually is for some reason.